I’ve been working at my new job for a solid five months now and I still haven’t found a blogging schedule that fits my new life as an adult. Add to that the house we bought and all the work that goes into planning the renovations and you get me… forgetting that I even have a blog. I don’t know what just happened, but I completely forgot to plan some much needed blog-time this weekend. Or any me-time at all. I’ve been sleeping a little less and worrying a little more lately and I’m starting to feel that it might all just be too much. I don’t have the patience to kick back and relax on the couch with a magazine and shut the whole world off, you know, really just be by myself. I’m always racing and finally I am starting to feel like I’m getting behind on myself. I was trying to be the best at my job, the best at keeping my house tidy, the best on social media, the best blogger, the best renovation planner, the best friend… and it’s just not working out.
It’s not the first time that I go through a stage where I feel like I’m losing it. Two years ago, during my last year in uni, life caught up with me too. Something had happened that set me back a long way and I wasn’t feeling like myself for a long time. My blog was the first thing I let go of and I disappeared from it for a good seven months before slowly making a comeback. Turns out, my blog was just the thing I needed to find myself again. It’s weird, I cannot really explain why, but blogging just worksfor me. It eases my mind, gives me a purpose, a thing to focus on and forget my worries for a while.
And I have focus in excess! I have been writing up drafts over the last couple of weeks and I just noticed that I’ve somehow accumulated 8 (!) posts that should all have gone up in October, haha. I’m slowly feeling better and hope that by sticking to my blog I will only feel better faster.
I intended to write a post about how I love that silver seems to be taking over from rose gold as THE trendy metal, but eventually the words didn’t come and I switched to writing a little messy piece about my current feelings. Now I’m trying to force my brain to come up with a joke about silver linings and my blog giving me hope for better days, but my brain is fried and you probably agree that such an ending would be too cheesy, right?
I see you guys soon!
cardigan: River Island
top: River Island
jeans: Levis
shoes: Sacha shoes (c/o)
handbag: Guess “Cate” (c/o Duifhuizen)
necklace: My Name Necklaces (c/o)
ring: Twice as Nice
I totally get what you mean about your blog just working for you. It’s your own space, where you can both vent and let your creativity shine, without the requirements that come with things like jobs and uni. Take care of yourself and you’ll find your way back to it π You have a lot going on!
Raar maar waar, ik weet exact wat je bedoelt.. Same situation here! Veel werk, weinig slaap, mijn sociaal leven onderhouden, mijn sport onderhouden, … WE KEEP ON BLOGGING, my ginger friend π Amsterdam gaat ons goed doen!
X, Eline
First, this is such a great outfit! The grey cardi looks so cosy and I really like pink and grey together π
I’m sorry things are so tough with so much going on – hopefully it all settles down soon for you! It’s hard to keep a routine with a lot of changes, and so much has happened for you! π
Blogging is my “me-time” too and I enjoy doing it even if sometimes I worry I won’t have things organised in time. Having a backlog of scheduled posts in my drafts helps as I’m not leaving things to the last minute. Hopefully you find a routine that works for you soon π
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